"Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy. "

18 October 2010



7 eggs

I'm not quite sure what to think of that right now.

I know a lot of things that could be said about this:
"Quantity over Quality"
"You only need one"
"Think positive thoughts for those eggs and hope they fertilize"
"I know a woman had way less eggs and she got pregnant"

But honestly it is a letdown. I had 18 eggs with my first IVF and 16 with my second. Granted I'm not pregnant, so that doesn't mean crap. And I was taking more meds for those cycles. (Because this cycle is a clinical trial, the protocol was fixed and so they couldn't give me more meds). But somehow I feel like this is a small defeat. I feel like its a realization that my body is older than I thought it was, reproductively. And that's a bit of an ego blow... a smack in the face... like, come on Kathleen... time's runnign out, so you'd better figure this out or give up.

Tonight I will try my hardest to get my negativity out of my mind and wake up looking forward to the next steps, knowing that I've done the best I can.

Whatever it is that you believe, please please pray/send good thoughts/energy to those eggs and sperm for a good fertilization report tomorrow!


  1. I have been waiting all day for an update!! OK, first of all, take a deep breath and congratulate yourself on doing yet another crazy cycle! A huge process on many levels and you did it! You made it through retrieval! OK...I know, you feel like smacking me. However, you know how this game is and yes, you know all of the sound-bites you listed are true, but in reality, it's out of your hands right now and you have given it your best. This entire process sucks butt and we should all give oursleves a little more credit for still managing to get out of bed in the mornings. I am sending extra mo-jo to you, your hubs, (awesome family), and those embies to-be. Tomorrow's another day and take it easy on yourself!

  2. I know how you feel Kathleen. Last cycle I got 18 eggs too (16 mature, 15 fertilised) but we ended up with only one blastie. This cycle I got 17 eggs BUT only 8 of those were mature and 6 fertilised and I was really disappointed. But guess what? We actually had better embryos. So yes, quality over quantity (sorry sweety!) I know it a total cliche but I had to say it because in my instance it was true and I HOPE HOPE HOPE that you get some good fertilisation results tomorrow, resulting in some fantastic embies! Rooting for you down under in Kiwi-land! xox

  3. Those are probably the best seven eggs ever :) Hang in there. Sending more good vibes and Tommy kisses to get you through.

  4. I am so sorry you a dissappointed, I would feel the same way especially after your prior results. i had a cycle like that and we got surprising less eggs than prior cycles. My RE was quick to caution that this does not say anything about my ovarian reserve (a subject I was quick to jump to) b.c every cycle is different and the need to look at the bigger picture when determining these things.
    I am crossing my fingers for you with fertilization reports and the transfer.
    Hang in there.

  5. I am praying for your little eggies that all of them fertilize!!

    Rest up and enjoy no more injections!!!!

    I will be stalking your blog now waiting for a fertilization report!!