"Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy. "

23 October 2010

2 Roses and Thank You


On the day after my retrieval, this past Tuesday, as I was sitting in my parent's office working from afar, my mom came home with these 2 roses for me. They were still a bit small that day, but started to open and blossom as the days went on. That morning, I had learned we only had 3 fertilized eggs sitting in the lab and I thought to myself, man, I wish she would have gotten 3 so I could focus on them as a representation of my embryos. But maybe, somehow,  subconsciously, whatever possessed her to buy these 2 roses, she knew that we would have these 2 surprise 4-cell fighters that are hopefully blossoming in me.

Today, I arrived back home in my own house after spending the last 2 weeks with my family in the city and burbs of Chicago. It was an amazing 2 weeks. I reflect on the quality time  I spent with my family, especially these last few days. My parents were so involved in the drama of the last few days that I truly think they have a whole new perspective on this journey and I know it brought us closer and gave them a glimpse of what B and I have been going through these last 3.5 years.

This morning, I even shared the art project, Yad Shniyah, with them before I left and I think it really helped them truly understand how the quest for a child is SO deeply personal and affects not only the couple or person who is going through it, but also many other people in their lives.

This also made me treasure how much support and love B and I have recieved throughout this journey and specifically in these last few crazy days. So I wanted to thank you ALL (fellow bloggers, family, friends, coworkers, lurkers... ) from the bottom of my heart for helping us find strength and giving us comfort. The journey is far from over, but for now, there is at least a moment of peace, before the end of the two week wait nears.

Much love to you all!

23 comments:

  1. I am so glad that there is so much support around you right now. I know this has been a hard cycle. I am pulling for your two little fighters, fingers and toes are crossed! Hang in there.

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  2. This peace of mind is exactly what I am seeking! And ICLW is really helping with that--so much support around every corner and inside each comment. ICLW makes a crappy situation a little more bearable.

    Great post! Wishing you lots of peace as you continue on the journey!

    ~Elaine

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  3. that's so sweet of your mom! Good luck with the 2ww and here's to growing beautiful babies, like those roses!

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  4. i hope your 2ww goes by quickly and ends with a happy and sucessful outcome.

    thanks for stopping by my blog

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  5. Grow Little Embries grow!!!

    I have everything crossed for you!!!

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  6. hi there! thanks for your comment. i've actually stopped by your blog before but i don't think i've said hi yet! just to let you know, the beyonce-is-pregnant thing may be a rumour. but stinks all the same haha. sigh. if its not her, there'll be another celebrity popping one out soon.

    oh... i so feel for you. two week waits are so agonizing... i hate them. but i'm hoping your little embryos are going well too. it is such a fascinating wait, yet soooo painful to bear too.

    thinking of you and glad you got some gorgeous flowers that sorta symbolise the little ones.

    (also just read about the project- Yad Shniyah - oh my... loving the idea!)

    hope you are having a good weekend too...

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  7. Thank you for your nice compliments on my post "I'm sorry". I would love for you to send it to your family and friends or to create your own. I love your post Yad Shniyah and I actually might write a post about it.

    Just so you know, my successful cycle only had 3 embryos, 2 were fertilized and transferred and I now have a baby girl. Hope and Hugs!

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  8. Wow, what a ride this cycle has been for you! I hope you'll have happy news at the end of the 2ww. I hate all the unnecessary drama - it's always like that for me, too! - on again, off again, on again. AAAAAGH!

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  9. Wow, what a whirlwind few days for you! Praying everything keeps blooming! Good luck!

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  10. Grow little embies grow! And what a lovely reminder with the roses that they are growing, and blooming.

    Wishing you all the best!
    ICLW

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  11. Thank you for stopping by my blog! Good luck in your two week wait. I am hoping this is it for you!! I will be following along!

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  12. Such a rollercoaster! Hooray for two beautiful embies!! Good luck!

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  13. Sending lots of positive thoughts for those embies. Good luck!! ICLW.

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  14. You've had such an emotional rollercoaster over the last 2 days! Hope the 2WW goes by quickly :) (and thanks for the Valium info in the previous entry - I hadn't heard of that before) ICLW

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  15. Sometimes moms just know. ;-)

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  16. How sweet of your mom. Aren't premonitions the weirdest things sometimes? I am just stoked you made it with two eggs to transfer. I hope that they are doing well and settling in nicely for the long haul. Be sure to sit back, relax, and take care of yourself during the TWW. I know how hard it can be. I hope you have peace throughout it.

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  17. Good luck and I hope the TWW goes fast for you :)

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  18. what a wonderful visualization tool! Those are pretty flowers. I hope your embryos are nestling in and getting ready to burst forth and bloom as well.

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  19. The roses are beautiful and I hope your flowers are growing strong for several months to come.

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  20. Im sorry I was out of town while you had your cycle--but Im checking in on you, and wanted to send you lots of POSITIVE thoughts!

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  21. Here from ICLW. Good luck and crossing my fingers for you!

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