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04 January 2011

What's In a Dream?

B and I woke up Monday morning both from a tossy and turny night of restless sleep... and some strange-ass dreams. Maybe because we were anxious about going back to work after a week and  half off, or maybe because we are now super close to starting shots for IVF #4...  January 1, AF showed and thus the BCPs start. (Ps... I hate BCPs worse than I do Lupron... Hopefully I'm not too much of a monster).

So here's what I awoke from that morning.

I arrived in Abu Dhabi and was heading to my hotel room. Not really sure why I was there. In order to get to the hotel room, I had to climb some steep ladder-like stairs and fit through a small half doorway of a clay type building. At the doorway was a little old lady wrapped in some head scarves welcoming me. I'm not sure if I found her scary or sweet.

Somehow I fit through the doorway and entered the hotel room. It was a really large space with a middle common room and a kitchenette with a window looking outside. Around this space were about 5 or so bedrooms. I was faced with choosing which bed I would be staying in. I was also waiting for my sister to arrive, so I wanted to find a bed for her. Also there were a few old college roommates.

I was struggling to make a decision on which room/bed to take. Each room was a bit wrong for me and I couldn't figure out where my sister would sleep too. As the dream progressed, the large room kept filling up with more people, most of which seemed like they were getting ready for some kind of party, to be thrown there in the room. And they were claiming their own bed spaces. And I started to get really anxious. Where was I going to sleep? Where was I going to find a quiet space of my own? And I didn't want there to be a party! I just wanted some rest and peace.

So I decided to take a bed in the room that was set up for kids. In the room, there were 2 little blond headed children, 1 boy and 1 girl, although I can't seem to remember their faces. There were smaller beds for them and they were each playing in the room at the time. There were also a few adult sized beds and I was trying to ask them if it would be ok if I slept in the room with them. The little girl seemed excited but I don't really remember what the boy had to say about it. I started to feel a  sense of calm coming on because I found a quiet place that I was going to be able to sleep and I was exicted to lay down next to this sweet little girl and hear her sleep later that evening...

And then the dream fades out and I'm not sure what else happened... and I woke up  and asked B if he had strange dreames and told him that 'my head is f-ed up!"

He proceeded to tell me about a snippit of his strange dream, where there were beer bottles, but they were also representing kids, and he had to choose which ones to pick...  I don't even know where to begin with that one, or do I? :-)

So yesterday, I was chatting with M about my dream for a bit and we agreed there was some crazy symbolism going on there... M's also on her own fertility journey. Go visit her! Her blog rocks. Oh, she's also a therapist, so I like to pick her brain now and then. Anyways, our conversation prompted me to look some things up in an online dream dictionary. Here's some of the interesting things I found:
  • stairs - To dream you are walking up a flight of stairs, indicates you are achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress in your spiritual, emotional or material journey.
  • door - To dream you are entering through a door signifies new opportunities that are presented before you. You are intereing into a new stage in your life and moving from one level of consciousness to another. If the door opens to the inside, it denotes your desire for inner exploration and self-discovery.
  • bed- To dream you are searching for a bed suggests you are looking for domestic security/happiness
  • children - There's just way too much out there on seeing children in a dream that I don't even know where to begin, so I think the best is just to state the obvious... I WANT CHILDREN! AND I WANT THEM NOW! They also seem to represent the fact that I need to take time off to cater to  MY inner child, which I obviously don't do enough of.
  • hotel - To see a hotel in your dream signifies a new state of mind or a shift in personal identity. You are undergoing some sort of transition and need to move away from your old habits and old way of thinking. You need to temporarily escape your daily life.
As for Abu Dhabi, I think that was in my dream because a friend of my sisters is spending time over there for a month. I have no real other reason why that would pop into  my head. The mind really is a strange place, huh?

So, what do ya think? Any good dream analyzers out there?


  1. First off Yippee for starting IVF #4!!! I have a good feeling about this one

    As for the dream, I think your sub-conscious and your future children were trying to tell you to hang in there they are on their way!!

    DH and I had a very similar dream on the same night about a baby just before we started our successful IVF #2. I hope this is just a sign of what is to come for you!!!

  2. Good luck with your next IVF! Very interesting dream!

  3. I don't have anything to offer in terms of analysis (sorry!), but I am always so intrigued by dreams as well. The symbols and meanings you found seem spot on to me! I am so excited for you...for the enhanced clarity on what you guys want and that your opportunity is just around the corner!! Hang in there on the BCP's. Hoping they will fly by!!

  4. Thanks for the shout out, Kathleen! Your symbolism translations sound perfect.....if you read the translation and your soul said "yes!" then they are probably correct. ;-)

    I also wonder if Abu Dhabi has anything to do with tending to inner-child space....don't they have a lot of whimsical and fun buildings there? Sounds like childhood to me. Maybe a trip to Disney would suffice....if so, I'm in! :D